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the last few chapters..

14/10/2009 (day 46 of 'revelation') (day 1st of 'separation')

living a new chapter of my life.. every beginning is a new chapter.. the continuity will depend on how the last chapter's end..

my new 'chapter' is totally different from the past.. its almost like an 'alien' life to me.. i haven't been in this kind of chapter for nearly a decade.. i already forgot how to live.. and then even if i have been through this kind of chapter it won't be the same like what i'm living now because time moving on and people changed; maturity, how do i prepare myself to face this situation.. how do i start.. so many questions.. so much to learn.. so much to cope..

i take it as a test for myself.. a test for my love and devotion.. i'll try to live a 'regular' life.. mingling with others.. put myself into trials and temptations..

my hope for the ending of this chapter is it's a happy one.. 'cos i consider this one is quite 'dark' and 'gloomy'.. i hope there will be light in the end of the tunnel.. or nothing at all.. but whatever it may end, i will try to accept it with open heart.. my acceptance of life.. so nobody will ever feel regret if something happen to me, whether it is intended, accident, or nature-caused..

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  1. leaOctober 14, 2009 at 7:56 AM

    han.. promise me dat u shall live a gud life during these period.....i nvr want anything happen 2u as inside of me i do love u so very much...wait 4 me wil u?

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