when everything need to be justified

been away for a long long time.. i seem to have nothing to share with.. i cudnt think of anything.. well, let me share with u about a guy i (and many of my buddy) loathed/hated/disrespect very much.. there was a guy who just couldn't sit his ass down without making other people's life misery.. he was constantly complaining, making up bad stories, prejudice, distrust, bad-mouthing, etc. ( anything bad you can imagine ) he made innocent people guilty.. he wanted everything to be in his liking.. like playing god i assume.. well, because of that nobody like him.. even his family abandon him.. i wouldn't be surprised if someday he died alone.. one of my friend said it would be a celebration for 40 days and nights if he passed away.. couldn't agree more (heheheh!!!!) the pressure is mounting and waiting to blow out.. if he keep continuing his pursuit of happiness than its a hell of a living for us all who work under him.. i never respect such person who didn't respect h...

its not my place to talk about others family but i just can't stop thinking of what i saw and heard yesterday.. it goes something like this: son: mom, teacher ask the parents to come to school today. mom: aiya cannot, i'm going out la.. son: but its very important. mom: ask your brother to replace me la.. son: but only parents were requested. mom: aiya why is it so hard for u? tell your teacher la your mom just passed away last night!!! ..then the 'mom' leave the house leaving her son 'blank'.. with the rising of juvenile case i won't be surprised cos i think i know what cause it the most.. parenting failure.. maybe others will argue with me but lets face it.. anything happen to our children is come from the family.. if we teach them well, give good examples then i believe our children will be just fine.. or not!!

Sometime we dont get wat we want just bcos we're doing the right thing.. We do thing like it used to flow.. Yet instead of getting paid like it shud be, we dont.. And then there are other who do the same thing we do except they do it in a 'wrong' way are more successful than us.. But then no matter how desperate we want something, do it the right way..

working as a group are good.. while it save time and effective, it also makes us believe and depend on each other... on the other hand when the 'groupie' started to get along with each group member, other person who is not belong to the group will feel indifferent.. i am such person who does not belong to any group during works.. thats why i don't make lots of friends.. sometime i rather be alone doing my jobs (which i can be more reliable than doing it with other people).. like i care.. and somehow its not a good thing to be out of the packs.. i know.. i should change.. and maybe it depend on the situations i am facing.. if it needs to be done with other people then i'll be ' in the pack' ..

terlalu lapang.. tadak orang.. thats wat i can say for today.. not much costumer, not much to do... well, its not like it happens everyday.. there were time that u cudnt get enuff rest.. but i much prefer doing something than sit down and do nothing.. what a waste of time.. exited with ur new job? i am.. in fact i feel proud to be a part of this department.. not boasting.. just expressing my feeling that is.. its not because i can do something to get more.. its just feel nice to do my job.. n its not that my previous jobs a crappy one.. its just that this time its much better.. lebih terjamin.. next month, every saturday for the whole month, we the new intake have courses to attend.. n slepas tamat kursus durang buat peperiksaan penilaian.. sapa2 yg lulus akan dihantar ke AIMM utk menjalani induksi..im not sure how long maybe 3weeks or 2month.. i hope i can do my best.. fighting!!

refer to title above.. something that shud not b happend in an organization.. but usualy happen.. like i dont know. but i do care.. cos we're giving good service.. and if u cant give good service its realy bad to our organization, right? if u dnt know something about other, try to ask for it.. it isnt easy with unhelpful buddy but its not hard to ask.. dont answer things u dont know, not sure.. just b honest.. tell ur costumer to wait.. go look for it.. that way everybody satisfy.. puas hati... inter-department communication.. too many weakness.. it shud be fixed from time to time...

they say only the strong survive.. from the dawn of time creatures evolved from single cell to what we saw now.. its evolution at its best.. demikian la juga dgn idup kita skg nih.. hanya mereka yg 'fit' saja dpt idup.. well, i didnt say that weaker person cannot survive.. its just that kalo ko mo idup senang, mewah, bahagia (dan sewaktu dgnnya only those who hv courage n dare to face the challenge will prevail.. i dunno if im one of those 'fit' person... i usualy in-between.. yg sedang2 saja ;) keja makan gaji ni bole dikira lucky.. bertuah.. terpulg kpd individu tu utk mjadi lebih baik drp keadaan dia skg.. i mean.. kalo idup mkn gaji jak, yg idup month-to-month basis, jika tiba2 ada masalah mmg trus kaboom.. i've been there, done that.. n its hard living like dat.. there shud b a back-up plan for everything.. yalah kan.. manatau tiba2 ko ilang punca pendapatan..  apapa pun,.. just do wat we do best.. n just remember if we feel unlucky enuff to live, there r other...