when everything need to be justified

just got back from my hometown Kudat, Sabah.. and my holiday didn't go to waste. 1st of all, i would like to express my thank you to Miss Mg.Kayangan for giving me chance to meet her.. and it was a wonderful meeting.. or lets just say that its a 'life-changing' meeting.. regarding my parents. they still not divorced, but i guess only time can tell how long they will stay that way.. i already tried to change my momma's mind but she is just stubborn. well, i guess they got their own prides and egos to maintain. no tolerance between them only lead to disaster.. and somehow, i'm so close to giving up trying.. but thanks once again to Miss Mg.Kayangan, i will try much harder next time. anyway, maybe you all wondering, why is it or what is it all about Miss Mg.Kayangan? well, its something i'm not ready to share with you at the moment (for afraid of the side effect..) but i guess some of you already know it (heheh).. i guess that's it for now.. till then, thanks f...

well.\, this coming friday my parent goes to the court to settle their dispute; which mean the separation of my parent. in another word, divorce.. have i done something to avoid this? am i too late to change it? i wonder how am i going to face life. i know other had experience the same thing.. and its so common in other country.. well, the thing is, i love both of them and want them to reconcile.. but then, i guess i was hoping to bring new 'flavor' in my its too late.. i guess its too late.. nonetheless i hope the new life i am gonna face later didn't stop me form starting a new family of my own.. and i really hope that my future family will not be affected by it..

finally i came home.. well, i didn't really at home because i took a detour.. to labuan.. how convenience.. maybe next time i buy my airplane ticket to labuan then continue my journey back to my hometown.. remembering some of the most painful things in our life makes us what? much wiser? maybe.. because when we think of such bad things it moves us to not to do the same things in the future.. bad things happened is like a 'life-changing' event. but sometime we tend to do the same bad things.. why? because its fun? because its something that not always happen? or because we want to hurt someone's feeling? hmm, it seem so many reasons that i can find the words to describe it..

well, actually i have nothing much to say about my title post since so many people; when give up, will say "God has a plan for me" then won't even bother to try anymore. for me its so wrong to stop trying and let 'fate' decide for him/her life.. i'm still getting used with my new netbook Samsung N220 which i just bought yesterday. not trying to be tech savvy but i kinda fascinated by how technology has evolve in the past 10 years. and things nowaday become smaller and smaller, yet the functionality has become more and more useful. who know what might we encounter in the next 10 years; or 5 years from now.. but what i was really looking forward is the evolution of nano-tech.. maybe someday people don't need to use cell phone because it has been implanted into our body.. so people will connect to each other 'telepathicly' (hahah..) this coming sunday i'm going back to my hometown and expecting something to change my life entirely.. and since my p...

seeing someone u know in the newspaper is kinda 'wow wee!!!' feeling. no matter what the news they were featured. sometime we can be proud, and sometime it saddened us. i did bought myself a mobile phone for my birthday.. although its not what i intend to buy (china phone, featuring qwerty keyboard, wifi connection, dual sim, TV, etc).. i guess i'm going to sell it later or give it to my relatives (i guess my momma will like it).. and got me a new shades, and serviced my car.. costly but worthy.. what should i do next?