when everything need to be justified

my colleague just passed away few days ago.. road accident.. such a young lad.. then somehow i realize how precious life can be. not that i didn't realize it before.. its just sometime we can be easily forget that our life can be disappear anytime.. 1 more day to my birthday.. and surprisingly, this year i hope for something.. don't know what to expect.. its just that i want something to fill the blanks of my life.. hm, maybe i go buy something like a gadgets blablabla.. hmm.. can't think of anything.. i want something to satisfy me.. i'm not sure what, but gotta have something new in my possession.. maybe its lack of love that makes me want more.. i guess i just need a long holiday.. that should be enough for me.. -ONE MORE TIME- (got hooked up with Daft Punk!!)

(Picture taken before landing at KK Airport Terminal 2, Tanjung Aru) I was writing a story about a luggage left at the airport.. well, its not about the luggage entirely but the story evolve around it. i was trying to tell what people think about something they should know and better yet take responsibility.. i want to write about feeling of guilt, anger, curious, happiness, etc. that i could imagine off. it should be from third-person view. i mean, i rather call my story as collection of human consciousness. so its like a collections of stories.. not too deep actually.. i just want to write what we feel everyday and how we deal with it.. there will be numbers of characters in that story and well, i have to think like they thinking. e.g.: the person who found the bag, or the person who personally handle the bag but did not do his/her job properly.. etc. well, i am not gonna tell you more about it. and i am still doing research for my story; mainly about airport security and the procedu...

finish my 1st paper today.. there's another one to go tomorrow.. never thought that i still got exams after school.. it seems like our lives is an examination. i want to study tonight, but my head is spinning.. maybe i'm tired.. last night didn't have enough sleep.. and waking up earlier this morning.. then a long drive fro Semenyih to Shah Alam then continue to KLIA after the examination, then back home at Semenyih.. wow.. i used to be a long-distant, non-stop driver. but now i just can't hold 3 hours on the road. my eyes feel sleepy, light-headed. very dangerous.. ok. this is my first post with picture.. i hope it brings new color (and longer loading time which is not good) to my blogs.. actually i don't really care if someone read it or not.. because nothing really valuable inside.. its just what i felt.. and its common feelings..

APRIL Statuses written in this month: 6 i hope i think i know April 14, 2009 at 8:04am on the crime scene: kalo tak salah napa nak lari? April 15, 2009 at 3:06am conversation overheard while walking home yesterday: guy1: itu crita lama, yg skg ni crita baru.. guy2: tapi kalo sodara cmana? guy1: ikut arahan jak.. nda boleh tu nda la.. April 16, 2009 at 3:11pm dui penat sia kawad 1 ari.. sunburn lg huhu.. April 18, 2009 at 6:24am Even if you can't see, it doesn't mean its not real.. April 18, 2009 at 7:50am sibuk main Mafia Wars d Tagged.. April 19, 2009 at 3:06am JUNE Statuses written in this month: 18 Mana lg bgus? Guna duit jabatan utk beli tazer gun ka atau byr OT staf? June 17, 2009 at 12:27am The best way to fight a riot is run. If u r outnumbered lah.. June 17, 2009 at 12:34am Currently leveling up 89++. Family members 414 June 17, 2009 at 5:16pm Reaching 92 in Mafia Wars.. Stil long way.. June 18, 2009 at 11:37pm Mafia wars.. Vampire wars (wicked!!).. Tiring.. Interfere w...

there are time when we were so 'lost', we did the unthinkable.. hurting someone's feelings, and then suddenly we feel regretful for what have been done. then came the search for forgiveness. we started saying "forgive me" to those we hurt.. and somehow we felt not forgiven by them.. and sometime saying "forgive me" is kinda hard to do.. but our soul never feel satisfy even though they said "i forgive you".. so we repeat again until came to a level that make us begging for their forgiveness.. but the truth is, did we forgive ourselves? forgiven for ourselves mean like perentance. repentance is a change of thought and action to correct a wrong and gain forgiveness from a person who is wronged. in my own view, to ask for forgiveness, we must first be honest to ourselves. secondly ask ourselves if we really feel regret. then we can ask for forgiveness. show them your sincerity. show them how really sorry you are for what you have done. but the mos...

talking about global warming (not!).. my place here was so hot i could barely sleep at night.. got my table fan set to full, no blankets, butt-naked, still hot.. well, i guess life in suburban area meant to be like this.. i wish to go back to my hometown.. where the air is much cooler.. and there is no 'issues'.. where people live in harmony.. i wonder how the locals endure these situations.. maybe they have evolved to tolerate the heat e.g.: heat resistance sapiens (haha, sorry).. and maybe the grow accustomed to this environment.. but nonetheless, i do think that i'm not the only one who feels it.. so what should we do? start recycling? garbage don't generate heat unless burned.. car pooling? would you? why should i? grow new trees? yeah, i can do that. where to? outside the forest reserve there are no more places to grow trees.. hmm, why don't they, the scientists, shoot rockets to the ozone layer then release the H3O (did i get it right, tonto?) to patch up the ...